I used to question my friends why couples, regardless of age, suddenly become silly, babyish, immature, and things like that when they talk to their partners. I see it with my brother and his girlfriend, with my co-teachers and close friends (no offense! haha). It was an issue for me, because my perception of being into a relationship is for the two people to become maturer, in terms of the things they talk about, what they do, how they deal with their emotions and concerns, and how to fight for their relationship for it to last, etc. But, i think i overlooked it. I was trapped within the notion that courting for "older" people MUST be serious and mature ALL THE TIME. I stand corrected... well...

What they said was true, that "Phnas, you wouldn't get it, unless you're in that exact situation". Siguro nga....

Enjoy. Weird. Funny in a way. Highschoolish. Kilig.

My third year of teaching started heavily. I think not only for me, but for my co-teachers as well. Things have changed a lot…as in a lot! People, responsibilities, workplace, relationships and i think also me? maybe.

Before the school year started, i had high hopes that this would be my greatest and happiest teaching year, being my last year of stay in Wordlab, but it seems like, it'd be difficult to realize that now. Sad.

Good thing is, i still have my boys... thank you God!

Thank you for making me smile in the morning when I wake up…and not letting my day ends without a happy heart…

In the Shadows of Tears
June 6, 2008
9:35- 10:06am

I remembered those days, when we were together
When we sat back and just laughed, over the same things
Everything was still, everything was still….
But time passes and life changes
The old “us” is now dying away…

CHORUS:
They are leaving me in the shadows of tears
Crying alone, no trusting hands to hold on to
I remain constant where I am
They’re all gone, they’re all gone
Where would I go?
How would I start, living again?
When would I stop, waiting….?

I bow my head in prayer that they’ll all be okay
Lift up everything, sorrows and anger
Help me to accept this selflessly
Don’t feel sorry for my choice to stay
And be happy where they are going
In new places they all call home

Someday we’ll meet again, just like the old times
Fixing the broken pieces left by the aches
I will still be here, happy to welcome you back
To the home where we all grew up

I Will Be Here

By Phnas: March 25, 2008

1:20 am

Under the clear sky

Beneath the still stars

A song was made

An endless story of you and me

CHORUS:

When I hear the music playing

Melodies being sung

I remember you, the promise I made

I will be here, us, together, forever

The words tell the story of a promise

The melody, like a shelter that gives comfort

Unspoken care, you relentlessly keep within you

I want to tell you, I miss you and

I am just here, I will be here, forever

In a different time, in a different place

We will not be the same persons we both used to know

Lots of things could have changed

But a promise made out of love and care

Will be in us forever until the end of time

I missed blogging!

Yes, it’s been a while, and I truly missed writing in my blog. So many things happened in the span of more or less than a month. Here’s a quick review:

(not in particular order)

Personal life

1. I am still single… but there’s more story to it…to be discussed next time.
2. I still don’t know how to start being a daughter again to my daddy
3. I am happy though…. But I’ve been prancing around in a particular level of happiness for a while now…I am not yet happier

Spiritual Life

1. I’m in a crisis right now. The high feeling has surpassed after the retreat and I am again being dragged down to my old ways.
2. the shepherding is not that working for me, because I resist. I don’t know if this is for me.

Social Life

1. our Zambales trip pushed thru and it was super successful. So many unforgettable and fun memories were laid up.
2. I miss my bes.

Career

1. I’m excited for the coming school year because first, I will see my kids again, second there will be new teachers and I will be the ate and third, I love the workplace more.

Future Plans:

1. NMAT review is ongoing.
2. planning to take MT courses for future needs