“It is ok to feel scared because it means you still have something to lose.”
AGREE
Feeling scared in the first place makes you a human being…
Feeling scared makes you realize you are blessed…
And feeling scared teaches you to value what was given to you…
“There is no point of telling the truth if it would just cause pain.”
DISAGREE
Being ignorant causes you way more pain…
“The thing that counts most in the pursuit of happiness is choosing the right companion.”
AGREE
It is easy to be genuinely happy if you are surrounded with people you love and care for, with people who love you back and take care of you as well.
“When you start to let go…. Everything becomes a gift”
AGREE
But when would you know when is the right time to let go?
If you know there is a reason to expect something, wouldn’t you take the risk?
Letting go really hurts… so much..
But when you’re done with it….everything becomes wonderful…because you would start to appreciate…
Friday, January 25, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I always say I am ready for change…to be open for new things. But living up with change is really huge for me. Changing even the smallest thing, simplest habit or attitude towards something is like taking a very big risk. Doing things I am not used to, not doing the normal stuff, being bold not following what’s imperative and hoping for what’s ideal. Gosh! I just hate me! Really! I’m scared what could happen if I can’t do it, if I made the wrong decision in changing one part of me and end up being unhappy. That idea scares the hell out of me! This is unbelievable and unacceptable! I know I am the one whose making my life complicated…All I want is to live simply…but that philosophy of mine makes everything else dense…
My girl best friend, Nica always tells me, that conditioning myself in welcoming new chapters in my life and preparing myself for it isn’t enough, that I need to do something about it. Gosh! I know that…but I just can’t set my one foot forward… and start.
I pray for myself, I pray for this, I pray that God, that Daddy Jess will teach me to grow up and be open to better perspectives and not be afraid to try, commit and fail.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
The friendship...
It was never easy to fight for something really important to you....
To sacrifice a lot for someone who has been a big part of your life...
It has gone through so many unexplainable circumstances...
But it made a choice...the choice to fight for the right reason...
It was contested a myriad of times...
Doubted by the public...
Endured countless battles...
That it almost gave in...
Patience was the key...
It was tested by time...by distance...
Then, things just happened eventually...
The friendship started to grow and mature...
It teaches trust and understanding...
Happiness and contentment...
Unconditional and genuine love...
The story...our lives...the friendship... just go on ... hope till the end of our time
IN and OUT ver.2
IN
Good Days coffee (all varieties!)
annual physical check up
traffic-free Saturday for me!
seeing Andy again...
Knick-Knacks choco! (happiness!)
NMAT sched...
basketball Qfinals
Amazing Race Asia2
hotcakes!!!!(milky and sugary)
refrigerator at home (haaay happiness ulit!)
seeing him again and feeling really glad that he's ok :)
Beepsie seeing Vito!!!
may readers ang blog ko!!! (thank you..thank you)
OUT
upset stomach
injections...needles...blood..
weighing scale...
letting go of Jed...:(
washing my own clothes...(ouchy! kahit 1.2.3 lang yun, masakit pa dn sa kamay!)
the weather and the season...
Good Days coffee (all varieties!)
annual physical check up
traffic-free Saturday for me!
seeing Andy again...
Knick-Knacks choco! (happiness!)
NMAT sched...
basketball Qfinals
Amazing Race Asia2
hotcakes!!!!(milky and sugary)
refrigerator at home (haaay happiness ulit!)
seeing him again and feeling really glad that he's ok :)
Beepsie seeing Vito!!!
may readers ang blog ko!!! (thank you..thank you)
OUT
upset stomach
injections...needles...blood..
weighing scale...
letting go of Jed...:(
washing my own clothes...(ouchy! kahit 1.2.3 lang yun, masakit pa dn sa kamay!)
the weather and the season...
Friday, January 18, 2008
The Battle
“If there is one advocacy I would be willing to fight for, it would be joining the battle of children with dyslexia. To let them be accepted and understood and not be reckoned as stupid, lazy and useless. To help them realize their potentials and the millions of things they could do even if they have this learning disability“ - phnas
When I graduated I never considered working in any corporate setting. It won’t work for me! Coz I easily get bored. I hate doing things over and over again, robotic stuff. I’d just be sick and throw up everything I do and die! Seriously!
I was looking for a kind of work that will give me happiness, new knowledge and experiences, a positive environment, and lots of fulfillment. A kind of job that will make me grow and be a better person. (so ideal!)
I was accepted in a regular prep- school, named Kostka in Katipunan but decided to let it down last minute because I had a good chance of getting another job which I deemed as more challenging, and that is to be a special educator. I took the risk and fortunately I made it and got in. I signed up for a 3-year contract, it’s looong! But I know, that would be a good foundation for something.
Wordlab School:
When I first walked in Wordlab, I felt so small in terms of everything. I was a neophyte trying to absorb and learn their way of living. Believe me, people there are smart and competent. I was the little fish in a very, very, very big pond. I felt really insecure! But I stayed positive and believe I could do this…
I want to talk about so many things that I am learning from my job, the people I work with, the experiences I am having, and my amazing and lovable kids I handled and been handling. Next time…..
Anyways, I’d like to give you a background information about the difficulty my kids are having. It’s called Dyslexia.
What is Dyslexia?
The b becomes a d. The g changes into a p or a q. Some letters seem to move across the page. Others disappear. For children with dyslexia, learning to read doesn’t come easy. Still, many of them are only too willing to learn.
Dyslexia is a condition that has been likened to many things: being stupid, lazy or slow. Sadly, some dyslexics are made to believe they are. It is none of these. Dyslexia is a learning disability.
Characteristics of Dyslexia
A child with dyslexia:
• Has difficulty learning to read
• Makes strange spelling mistakes
• Confuses letters such as b and d
• Mixes up letters in a word/ words in a sentence
• Has poor sense of direction
• Confuses left and right
• Has difficulty remembering sequences
• Cannot fully understand what s/he has read
• Has difficulty with the multiplication table
• Pays attention to everything
• Has difficulty focusing on a task
• Has difficulty coordinating movements
• Lacks confidence and exhibits low self-esteem
Bloopers
I love my kids soooooo much… for immeasurable reasons. When I am around them, I feel like a child again, a friend to them, their sister, mom and yaya all rolled into one. In short I become Super Teacher Phnas! Hehe.
They make me realize how lucky and blessed I am. They make me cry most of the times not because makulit sila or it’s a challenge to teach them, but because they are making me a better person and making me realize more that I can really make a difference.
But you know the best thing when I am with them?…. They never fail to make me laugh sobra! Here are some samples of their funny anecdotes:
T: (Teacher)
K: (kid)
T: What do you think are bristles?
K: When you’re in a fire, after it you get on your arms…like black color…
T: Ah…bruises!
--------
T: What can you say of people or person who does everything you say and does not complain?
K: Theyare…slaveable!!!
T: When you always obey somebody, you are?
K: Obeyful
--------
K: I am going to a party tomorrow (friend’s birthday)
T: Really? Where? What time?
K: in ATC (Alabang Town Center)…it’s none of your business.
We were about to make an aquarium…
K: Are we making a fish?
--------
Word to read: who
K: /whore/
T: (what!!!???)
--------
K: I have a new book teacher (9 year-old boy)
T: Really! Are you reading it?
K: Yeah! I’m in chapter 900!!!! (wahahahah)
--------
KWL chart (Listing down the things you Know, things you Want to learn and things that you’ve Learned after discussing the topic)
K: (posting a question about Tornado)
K: Why are tornadoes made by God?
T: (Oh my God!)…next question please….
---------
K: Mina, typhoon!
T: Yeah! We have a typhoon Mina.
K: Oh my gosh! Are we gonna die?
---------
While reading : Tonight in the Titanic”
T: What’s happening to the boat?
K: The boat is sinking….group yourselves into….
“If there is one advocacy I would be willing to fight for, it would be joining the battle of children with dyslexia. To let them be accepted and understood and not be reckoned as stupid, lazy and useless. To help them realize their potentials and the millions of things they could do even if they have this learning disability“ - phnas
When I graduated I never considered working in any corporate setting. It won’t work for me! Coz I easily get bored. I hate doing things over and over again, robotic stuff. I’d just be sick and throw up everything I do and die! Seriously!
I was looking for a kind of work that will give me happiness, new knowledge and experiences, a positive environment, and lots of fulfillment. A kind of job that will make me grow and be a better person. (so ideal!)
I was accepted in a regular prep- school, named Kostka in Katipunan but decided to let it down last minute because I had a good chance of getting another job which I deemed as more challenging, and that is to be a special educator. I took the risk and fortunately I made it and got in. I signed up for a 3-year contract, it’s looong! But I know, that would be a good foundation for something.
Wordlab School:
When I first walked in Wordlab, I felt so small in terms of everything. I was a neophyte trying to absorb and learn their way of living. Believe me, people there are smart and competent. I was the little fish in a very, very, very big pond. I felt really insecure! But I stayed positive and believe I could do this…
I want to talk about so many things that I am learning from my job, the people I work with, the experiences I am having, and my amazing and lovable kids I handled and been handling. Next time…..
Anyways, I’d like to give you a background information about the difficulty my kids are having. It’s called Dyslexia.
What is Dyslexia?
The b becomes a d. The g changes into a p or a q. Some letters seem to move across the page. Others disappear. For children with dyslexia, learning to read doesn’t come easy. Still, many of them are only too willing to learn.
Dyslexia is a condition that has been likened to many things: being stupid, lazy or slow. Sadly, some dyslexics are made to believe they are. It is none of these. Dyslexia is a learning disability.
Characteristics of Dyslexia
A child with dyslexia:
• Has difficulty learning to read
• Makes strange spelling mistakes
• Confuses letters such as b and d
• Mixes up letters in a word/ words in a sentence
• Has poor sense of direction
• Confuses left and right
• Has difficulty remembering sequences
• Cannot fully understand what s/he has read
• Has difficulty with the multiplication table
• Pays attention to everything
• Has difficulty focusing on a task
• Has difficulty coordinating movements
• Lacks confidence and exhibits low self-esteem
Bloopers
I love my kids soooooo much… for immeasurable reasons. When I am around them, I feel like a child again, a friend to them, their sister, mom and yaya all rolled into one. In short I become Super Teacher Phnas! Hehe.
They make me realize how lucky and blessed I am. They make me cry most of the times not because makulit sila or it’s a challenge to teach them, but because they are making me a better person and making me realize more that I can really make a difference.
But you know the best thing when I am with them?…. They never fail to make me laugh sobra! Here are some samples of their funny anecdotes:
T: (Teacher)
K: (kid)
T: What do you think are bristles?
K: When you’re in a fire, after it you get on your arms…like black color…
T: Ah…bruises!
--------
T: What can you say of people or person who does everything you say and does not complain?
K: Theyare…slaveable!!!
T: When you always obey somebody, you are?
K: Obeyful
--------
K: I am going to a party tomorrow (friend’s birthday)
T: Really? Where? What time?
K: in ATC (Alabang Town Center)…it’s none of your business.
We were about to make an aquarium…
K: Are we making a fish?
--------
Word to read: who
K: /whore/
T: (what!!!???)
--------
K: I have a new book teacher (9 year-old boy)
T: Really! Are you reading it?
K: Yeah! I’m in chapter 900!!!! (wahahahah)
--------
KWL chart (Listing down the things you Know, things you Want to learn and things that you’ve Learned after discussing the topic)
K: (posting a question about Tornado)
K: Why are tornadoes made by God?
T: (Oh my God!)…next question please….
---------
K: Mina, typhoon!
T: Yeah! We have a typhoon Mina.
K: Oh my gosh! Are we gonna die?
---------
While reading : Tonight in the Titanic”
T: What’s happening to the boat?
K: The boat is sinking….group yourselves into….
Monday, January 14, 2008
Ten years have passed
But you’re still in my heart
Though I think the feelings have changed
But my love for you still remains…
It could have been me…but I am thankful that it was never me because I would not be able to enjoy what we are now if that happened. I am proud of myself that, at last I can look into your eyes without feeling so awkward because I know I’ve moved on. For real…. Thank you God! *whew*
Thursday, January 10, 2008
An Issue and the Weather
I think sibling rivalry never occurred between me and my brother. He was right when he said that we don’t have the usual brother-sister relationship like others do. Sometimes, our insensitivity made our relationship better, ironically. We grew up as independents that we don’t rely with each other most of the time. We can stand up on our own basically.
Nowadays, he shares more time with my mom as they live together in Rizal and me here in Alabang. I just see my mom during weekends and school breaks only and get to spend time with her when we go out and watch movies together. Before, I thought if I live separately away from her; it’ll give her a reason to miss me more, my presence in the house. Pero, I think that didn’t happen. L
Anyways, I feel that the issue of favoritism is beginning to bother me. Oh gosh this is so immature, I know! But it kills me and this makes me cry when I am alone in my apartment. I don’t know pero I hate the feeling. I came to this premise because of two things: first, she doesn’t prepare meals for me but she does with my brother, all the time. (I told you it’s so immature!). And to think na that is my only chance to savor “real meal” when I am at home because I don’t cook here and prepare good meals for myself. And secondly, she doesn’t treat me like she misses me.(haay…). In short, I’m jealous with the more attention my brother gets and I am pathetic! Haha.
Coping mechanism: I just think that it’s the weather that I have been feeling this! *shit*
Nowadays, he shares more time with my mom as they live together in Rizal and me here in Alabang. I just see my mom during weekends and school breaks only and get to spend time with her when we go out and watch movies together. Before, I thought if I live separately away from her; it’ll give her a reason to miss me more, my presence in the house. Pero, I think that didn’t happen. L
Anyways, I feel that the issue of favoritism is beginning to bother me. Oh gosh this is so immature, I know! But it kills me and this makes me cry when I am alone in my apartment. I don’t know pero I hate the feeling. I came to this premise because of two things: first, she doesn’t prepare meals for me but she does with my brother, all the time. (I told you it’s so immature!). And to think na that is my only chance to savor “real meal” when I am at home because I don’t cook here and prepare good meals for myself. And secondly, she doesn’t treat me like she misses me.(haay…). In short, I’m jealous with the more attention my brother gets and I am pathetic! Haha.
Coping mechanism: I just think that it’s the weather that I have been feeling this! *shit*
Saturday, January 5, 2008
How would the year 2009 change my life? hhmmmm
2009 will be a great year for me and my family, and I am really really excited about it, for the following reasons:
First, my contract in Wordlab will expire
Second, I will go back to school to study post-graduate courses or med if feasible by then
Third, I’ll be 24!
Fourth, I could get my new apartment unit in
Fifth, I will get the job that I once dreamed of getting
Sixth, we will transfer to our new home here at
Seventh, endless reasons to be happier!
Question: Who do i want to meet?Answer: Joachim “Sonny” Thoss!!!! ( "The Boss")
My gosh! Like 4 years ago, the first time I saw him on TV ( well I noticed him kasi he was one of the “kalbo guys” on court), he was just a rookie in the Alaska Roster and now his built has really improved a lot and that made him a stronger and better center at 6'7". He has this angelic and tamed looking face but when he is on court, astig!
Just today, against Talk N' Text, he scored his career high in this conference in rebound! Amazing!
Sana in one of the live Alaska Games i could see him and have an autograph!
Haaay..i could die after that!!! hahahaha. It will be like dream come true ang happiness ko nun!!!
Sobrang crush ko talaga siya!
Because FYI: When I saw Tim Cone (Alaska Head Coach) in
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